Mix the chemicals right, dear. Mix the chemicals right

I've been very ambitious tonight. I finished my evolution and biometry labs already, and I was assigned both of them today. I rule. Of course, this has nothing to do with the fact that Steph's been sleeping on the couch since I got home because she's sick. It has nothing to do with that...but everything to do with my outstanding work ethic....right. Now I'm watching Monty Python's Flying Circus, trying to think of something else to do. I do have more homework, but screw that shit. I'm not that ambitious. Thank god for video games :)

Ah.....

DSL is finally at my house....wireless DSL nonetheless (none the less?). Not only will I be happy, but Steph will be much happier because she won't have to listen to me complain about how much dial up sucks. It's a win-win situation. Not much else has been going on lately....same old crap. We're going to see Less Than Jake and Fall Out Boy Friday, then Good Charlotte and Goldfinger next saturday, and then Alkaline Trio the saturday after that. Fuckin' A. Oh, and Blink in December. That's a lot of concerts. Anyway, time to go check the new Homestar, because Matt told me they mention Teddy Grahams, and those rock. Bye.

The Punchline is the Way That You've Been Fucking Yourself

My room has reached near completion. I have a book case now, so my DVDs are out of boxes and my books are easily accessible. Steph's pretty much got all her stuff moved in too. It's actually starting to look like our room. It's really cool. It's awesome living with her; I love every second of it. Except when she tries to grab my nipples. That kind of sucks. Oh yeah, I kind iof hurt my back today carrying the book case up my stairs. I thought I threw it out at first, but it seems that it just decided that what I was doing was stupid and just tightened up on me. Hey, I didn't have to go to class today, so I didn't really mind.

So it's been awhile since I've posted. Let's see....what's happened lately. I bonded with Steph's dad by drinking Maker's Mark and playing pool with him. I got pretty drunk, but it went well. He never shared his good whisky with Steph's last boyfriend, so that's a good sign. I'm kind of hoping that Jeff does leave work. We had a little confrontation last week, and he's just been really negative lately. It's not fun to be around him, and I don't really see him changing how he feels anytime soon. It sucks cause I really like Jeff and I have a great time when I work with him, but I've been trying to decrease the negative influences in my life. So yeah. Steph just got back from brushing her teeth, so it's time to start homework. And then bed. Cause I'm tired. Bye.

I choose my friends by the beating of their heart, not the swelling of their heads

I swear that the dumbest, angriest people come out of their holes on Saturdays. I know. I work in retail. And I end up hating every customer by the end of every Saturday. Thankfully, I don't close on Saturday's that often, and it seems like the assholes don't come out until later in the day. But at least I'm home now. I'm anxiously waiting for my DSL to be turned on. None of this dial-up bull shit. I saw Saves the Day and Taking Back Sunday last night. TBS was awesome, and STD was good, but a little boring. Going to punk shows always makes me feel/think two things: I always feel so fucking old, and I'm always reminded of how many people think that being punk means that they have to be annoying little fucks. Okay. I'm done ranting now. Time for coffee.

I Can Hardly Wait Until I get the Sun and Your Lips Both Pressing on my Skin

I'm in ecology right now, not paying attention, because we're doing the same stuff that we do in biometry. Thank god for wireless. So I'm in a relationship now. Wow. I just told the professor how to do something. Give me money. I know what I'm doing. Anyway, things are going well. I feel grown up and stuff. I have a relationship, my own place, and debt. I'm all growns up. Mikey's the winner. Bye. Michelle says hi. She's just as bored as I am right now.

Keep On Your Mean Side

I'm officially an Apple user. Yay me.

Went and saw the Kills tonight. Awesome. The lead singer girl reminded me of Helena Bonham Carter from "Fight Club;" she paced around the stage like a caged animal and I expected her to explode and start screaming her head off at any moment. Long live rock n roll. On a related topic, I've been going to a hell of a lot of shows lately. Send me money.

Last couple of days have been good. I've been feeling a lot better lately. I do feel kind of dumpy right now, but that's probably because it's 3:30 in the morning and I'm still awake.

Time to do more things on my laptop that I could already do with other things in my house. I just choose to do them with my laptop cause it makes me look cool.

I've Seen More Spine in Jellyfish, I've Seen More Guts in 11 Year Old Kids

Okay. Don't laugh. I was looking at the moon tonight and it looked totally awesome. Clouds were moving from out in front of it, slowly revealing more of the moon to the night scape. It made me think about how I've always thought it would be so amazing to be able to go to the moon and look at the earth from that vantage point. I'm 22 and I sound like a 5 year old boy who dreams of being an astronaut. I don't know. I know that it's something that I'll probably never be able to do, but if I was given the chance to do anything, that would be at the top of my list. And I swear to god that I wasn't drunk while I was thinking this. Honest. Okay. You can laugh now.

Ugh...

I ate way too much Chinese food and now I don't feel good. But it was so yummy.

About Those Bitter Songs You Sing....

*looks around*....wow....been awhile since I've been here. Hope I still have some sort of a ragtag group of people reading this thing. If not...oh well. So let's see...what's new. I'm a Mac user now (well, at least I will be, once my laptop gets here). I may be going to Argentina in December to search for dinosaur bones. Ow. I just poked myself in the eye...Saw the Weakerthans last night. They were really good. John was happy the whole night. And they played my favorite song. Rocking. I think that's about it. I need to go to sleep. I just did my biometry homework and now my head hurts. Oh, and as for those bitter songs...."they're not helping anything. They won't make you strong."

"How I don't know how to sing. I can barely play this thing. But you never seem to mind, and you tell me to fuck off when I need somebody to. How you make me laugh so hard. How whole years refuse to stay where we told them to, bad dog, locked up whining in a word or a misplaced souvenir. How the past chews on your shoes, and these memories lick my ear. How we waste our precious time marching in the picket lines that surrond those striking hearts. How the time is never now, and we know who we should love, but we're never certain how. I know you might roll your eyes at this, but I'm so glad that you exist."

Weakerthans "Reasons"

Hell yeah

Thursday is on Monday This Week

Thursday was awesome. Woe to whoever missed it.

"There was honor among the thieves, the only truth I could believe. But when the lies applied to me and mine it's better left unsaid. We could write the hit parade outside the masquerade. The headache comes in tidal waves, the spoils of the spoiled. The lines of history became the scenary. It's strictly an accessory, an image to uphold. But it's all in fun and sin until someone calls it in. The cycle comes around again. But I'm older now, and don't you know, I've figured out the antidote. It overwhelms, engulfed in smoke. It's all we can to cope. Goddamn these idle hands as hindsight can. Our hopes and plans are unfulfilled. It's overwhelming. There's a proper place and time though the bags under your eye, they don't lie."

New Amsterdams "The Spoils of the Spoiled"

My birthday was lots of fun. Thanks to all my friends who celebrated it with me and added more fun than there would have been if I had just played video games all night. I'm tired. I really need to clean my room. What are you going to do about it?

I'm Sinking Like a Stone in the Sea

It's officially my birthday. I'm 22. I'm old. I was walking out on the golf course with Jay and Nic, drinking Buzzweiser, when my birthday rolled around. We were all pretty drunk. I got sprayed by a couple of sprinklers. No killer goose this time, so it was a plus. Time for bed. So tired...three hours of sleep and then 9 hours of school is not a good mix. Happy birthday to me.

I Would Kill for the Atlantic, But I'm Paid to Make Girls Panic

I'm in a strange situation. I'm trying to figure out how something that feels right for both parties involved still somehow doesn't end up working. I feel like I'm missing something really obvious, and as soon as I figure it out, I can just say "There. Problem fixed. Everything will be fine now." But of course we all know that things aren't that easy. I guess we'll figure something out at some point.

Someone scratch my head. Please

I really have no concept of what's going on right now. I need sleep

You might roll your eyes at this, but I'm so glad that you exist

Started school today. I hate thie first day of classes. Sitting around while the professor goes over the syllabus is no fun. I just wish we could skip all that crap and just get into the material. I mean, it's college. We should be able to read the syllabus and figure things out for ourselves. Anyway, looks like my ecology class is going to be fun. That class will tell me if I do actually want to be an ecologist.

"Maybe I just set aside
the fact that you were broken hearted
in my own special selfish way
and if I hadn't set aside
the fact that you were broken hearted
hell knows where your heart would be today
maybe with me"

-alklaine trio "sorry about that"

"Look, the bottom line is, you're going to be fine. You're just a kid. You know what, you grow up and everything ...well, it doesn't work out."
-Coach McGuirk

A Sonnet for Those That Have No Sonnet
I couldn't stop the stars from falling
the night you didn't say goodbye
I couldn't stop my hands from trembling
or bring myself to cry
I can't find myself when I'm lost in the darkness
where your visions still haunt me without the aid of light
These are the words I could never write
a composition so jagged it rips the paper it is written on
and it makes my fingers bleed
Your life came falling down
and I couldn't hold it up
I can't even hold myself up
I couldn't help you as you died
and now I have to say goodbye

I've been feeling the urge lately to isolate myself. Guess there's a lot of things that I just don't want to deal with right now. I'm trying my best to fight that urge though. I think I've been doing a pretty good job so far. I know that isolating myself will just make me feel worse than I do right now. It just seems like things are crazy right now. The wife of one of my dad's best friend's tried to commit suicide the other night. I didn't realize it until a couple of minutes ago, but it's really bothering me, and I don't really know why. Sure, it's a horrible thing, but I don't even really know her that well. I know her husband more than her, but I still don't know him that well. And yet this is really bothering me. Maybe it's because I see it as a confirmation that things really are going insane. Maybe it unsettles me because I used to feel that way, and it scares me that one day I may feel that way again. I don't know. I just want to feel happy again. I don't have to work again til 5 pm on Tuesday, so maybe the down time between now and then will help me grasp a hold of things and give me time to rest, cause I haven't been sleeping that much lately. I'm hoping that will help.

I Don't Want You if You Don't Want Me

Freddy Vs. Jason is one of the funniest movies I've seen in awhile. It was awesome.

Saw Tim play tonight. It was so good. His vocals were finally turned up loud enough so that the audeince could actually hear him.

Jay and Nic are moving out. Bastards.

Quote of the day: "I could shit you into submission." - Jay

Finally. A Chance to be Lazy

I finally have a day off. After working nine straight days, I can loaf around the house. Except I have things I need to do. At least I don't have to work.

Jay and I helpd Ed get his new trade section organized. Well, I should say Jay helped Ed. I just read Powers. Alissa, it's time you break down and read it. Do it!

Frank Miller's Robocop is fucking awesome. Robocop's name needed to be cleansed after all those crap video games.

I really want to write some new stuff, but it seems that I've hit a dry spell. I have a lot of things kicking around in my head, but can't really formulate more than just single lines or phrases. Somone inspire me dammit.